Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Failure

I guess I suck at keeping up with a blog, too.  Add it to the list.

Monday, January 24, 2011

I Love...January 23rd

I knew I'd get behind...but I didn't expect it to happen so soon!  I have had a plethora of loveliness the past few days, so here we go.

I love:

My friends and the awesome, supportive group I've managed to find.  I'm not quite sure how I managed to luck out, but I'm extremely grateful for them!

My house.  It is currently -8.3° outside (before windchill) and we're all warm and sleepy and happy inside.

My family.  We are loud and wild and there is so much LOVE!

D: That you take so much initiative with childcare.  It's not my "job" that you "help" with - you are an active participant and I KNOW I'm lucky.  A lot of guys can't handle taking care of the kids for any length of time, but you love it and know how important it is that I get some child-free time, too.  Thank you!!

B: How you amaze me every day!  You are so interested in so many cool things and I love that I get to share that with you!

M: How you love to hear our special song (that I make up a bit differently every night) before bed, but you NEVER let me sing it where anyone else can hear.  It's our secret and I love that!

L: What a clown you are!  You know how to make people laugh and you have great timing; not just for jokes, but also for when someone needs a hug.

<3

Monday, January 17, 2011

I Love...January 17th

I love...

D: That you make us yummy dinners and that you deal with me when I'm having "one of those days."

B: That you are a great cook!  You're learning so much and it's so cool that you often choose to watch cooking shows.

M: That you told me tonight that you will never go away from me.  I know someday you will, you just don't know it yet...but it sure feels good to know right now, you want to stay with me forever.

L: How much you love your brother and sister.  The way you hugged B today, with both arms and legs wrapped around her as she held you, was so sweet to see!

<3

Sunday, January 16, 2011

I Love...January 16th

I love...

D: How you are always ready to help someone who needs it, whether it be snow-blowing in the cold or running to the store when you should really be sleeping. You do a lot of wonderful things for people.

B: How you're such a big help to us. You jump into action to help us when we ask and I really appreciate it!

M: How funny and sweet you are when you're sleepy. I love the silly things you say and the way you snuggle!

L: How you talk. You constantly crack me up with your words, like today when you kept yelling "Totowo" (that's "Totoro," the movie, in case you couldn't figure it out). I love the way you say sock (yook), sing "Twinkle, Twinkle" and talk on pretend phones. I love the sound of your voice!

All 3 of you: I love how much you adore your Grammy/Grammo/Gammie! You are all always SO excited to see her and I know it fills her heart with so much love. How special you make her feel!

<3

Saturday, January 15, 2011

I Love... January 15th

I love...

D: How hard you work for our family. I know you often don't get enough sleep, enough time to yourself, enough appreciation. Thank you for everything you do.

B: How responsible you're being with your new glasses. You are taking such good care of them and wearing them as much as you can. You're doing great!

M: How kind you were to all of us today. You were so thoughtful to draw your sister a picture when she was feeling sad. Great job, buddy!

L: How you're so caring. You always have a hug or pat on the back for someone who's feeling hurt or sad. Not only are you learning new things every day, you're teaching us all to be more thoughtful and forgiving.

<3

Resolutions...but not really.

I'm not a fan of New Year's resolutions, because I feel like they often just set you up for failure. That being said, I'm making a few. Yes, it's January 15th. I'm a chronic procrastinator, so this shouldn't surprise anyone who knows me. I don't even know that I'd call them resolutions, really - though they are things I strive toward.

1. Be a calmer parent. I fly off the handle too often and it's hurting my kids and my relationship with them. They are the most important thing to me, so I need to figure out a way to stop being so reactionary. If anyone has any ideas, please let me know.

2. Provide the kids with more craft, mess-making and exploring opportunities. Don't just think of cool things to do with them - actually DO them. Get outside with them more.

3. Be kinder. To show my kids, by example, how to view the world and the people in it.

4. Blog every day, even if it's just a sentence; a funny thing the kids did or said, what we accomplished that day, a fun adventure we had. I can't chronicle our lives in facebook status updates - I need a more long-term solution. Given my inability to find a pen and/or piece of paper on any given day, perhaps the blog world will do for now. At least I could print them out, right?

5. Spend less time on the computer. Yes, this does indeed conflict with number 4.

6. Find motivation.

I know I won't keep up with everything on this list. Life happens. We all have good days and bad days. Some days I'm too tired or sore to do anything but the basics. As I said, these are things I strive for. To be a better mother, wife, daughter, friend. To be kinder, more forgiving. To learn to control, or lessen, my anger impulses. There are SO many other things I want to learn, accomplish, do...but I think this is a start.

To my kids:
I love the three of you more than anything. I'm sorry for every hurtful thing that's ever slipped out of my mouth. I'm doing my best and I'm trying to be better.

To my husband:
I love you. You are a wonderful husband and father. I apologize for everything hurtful I've ever said to you or about you. I'm trying to do better. Please work with me to make a happier, more active life for our family.

<3

Monday, September 6, 2010

Toddler Tantrums

I've never seen tantrums like this before. She's not even two; she's only 14 months. Today she tried to bite the stair post like a dog attacking the fleas on its leg, all because she wanted to nurse and nap and I wasn't hurrying to the stairs quickly enough to suit her.

She's a whirlwind. A beautiful, sweet, loving whirlwind. Now that she's walking, she's running. When she's done, she finds any bit of fabric, throws herself on top of it and snuggles in like nobodies business.

I love that baby!